This Time Last Year

I'll admit, I have about three posts saved on this topic. I really want to talk about last year... about finding out we were pregnant with our third. It was such a hard time for me. But things aren't quite coming out right in those posts. There's so much I want to say and to share and I want to get it just right. So I guess it'll have to wait till my thoughts calm down a little. But I really do want to share about my experience and though it was hard, how blessed we are. 

Maybe I'll leave this post with this little tid-bit and pick up the topic again in a little while...
After having Gavin a year and a half ago, I immediately starting thinking about our next little boy. Immediately. I remember talking to my mom on the phone when Gavin was around two months old about him. I knew that our next one was for sure a boy and what his name was (it is opposite of what it is now). My mom told me, "Amy, I never thought about my next child that fast. You don't need to be thinking about that." I told her, "I'm just so excited to think about our next kids!" I chalked it up to new-baby-euphoria- ready to go onto the next! I couldn't get him out of my head. I am serious, I thought about him so much. I always had a very happy and peaceful feeling- that is the best I can do with describing how I felt. When we found out we were pregnant again, the thoughts had diminished some and I completely forgot about it. A few months later I remembered how much I thought of and talked about our next son. I guess that was a way of Heavenly Father preparing me :) 

The way the year worked out after finding about the pregnancy is nothing short of tender mercies and Heavenly Father blessing us in any way possible. My testimony has certainly grown and been strengthened through the experience. Being a mom to three very little ones is hard. I won't sugar coat it. I feel like I barely survive some days and I am always beyond tired. But these three little boys have my heart- every last bit of it. I am so grateful that my Heavenly Father knew/knows better than we did and sent Jack to us. He is a sweet little baby and I wouldn't give him back. It is so perfect having him in our family


  1. I love that the boys love him and have accepted him so readily...he's a perfect fit! :)

  2. They are all so adorable! Gavin is such a cheeser. His smile is contagious!!!

    I can't imagine what it must be like having 3 small kids, but they won't be little forever. Enjoy it now, and I try to tell myself that too. Enjoy their funny toddler and baby quirks because in no time they will be throwing teenage attitude and we'll be wishing they were little again!!

  3. You rock! And I'm glad I'm not the only one who still feels tired all. the. time. Even when I get a "good" night's sleep... funny how that definition changes, huh?? Can't wait to hear the rest of the story. :)

  4. Hahaha...yes. I remember that. I was quite shocked so your head must have exploded when you found out. He's a cutie though!! Worth 2 years of pregnancy in a row. ;)